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This is
where
I put information about me, my
spirituality and my
passions, my
journey, inspiring quotes,
and links to other things that
interest me. My Passions and Interests: I read voraciously as
you can see from my Suggested Reading page. (For Astrologers only:
Although I have the Sun, Moon and Mars in Taurus, this must be what
having Gemini Rising with Part of Fortune, Vesta and
Venus in Gemini are all about - insatiable curiosity about a lot of
things!) My Creative Side:
I love working with computers - building them, upgrading and repairing them, computer shows, tutoring, and web page design. My Travels: I've lived in NJ, NY,
PA & CA and traveled to England, Spain, Portugal, France,
Mexico, and Canada - up and
down and back and forth the East & West Coasts. One big
event/choice in my life was my solo
pilgrimage-like drive across country when I moved back to NJ after
living 6 years in CA . I feel that a large part of my PURPOSE is to DISSEMINATE information and to HELP OTHERS HEAL their own childhood wounds (heavy PLUTO influence in my chart - see HEALING PLUTO PROBLEMS on my suggested reading page) by sharing my path to (Imagine off-key bleating trumpets here!): "Self-Discovery/Self-Love/Self-Empowerment"
A QUOTE from Marlo Thomas:
My personal healing journey started in 1986 when I heard Dr. Susan Forward's Talk Radio Show on WABC-AM in New York. She is the author of Betrayal of Innocence - Incest and Its Devastation and Toxic Parents among many other books. While listening to the callers talk, my own painful childhood memories (which were never forgotten...just pushed aside in my rush to escape from my family and enter the 'real adult world') were triggered. At the time I was in yet another unhealthy relationship with a pot addict and unavailable male who subsequently pulled a disappearing act. I spent the next 11 years (8 of them alone by choice) going to various 12 Step Self-Help groups, getting therapy, seeking healing and resolution to a lifetime of mild depression, anxiety, angst, pain, feelings of isolation, anger, frustration, distrust, resentment, etc. In
July of 1996 another relationship dissolved and left me feeling
abandoned and
used and furious with myself
for making the same mistakes yet AGAIN (feeling like: 3 strikes -
you're
out! and subsequently more distrustful and hollow). I knew I needed a
different forum in which to examine and heal my emotional,
mental and spiritual state. I started an online 16 Step Email list (with the help of an online friend who was more experienced than I was with email lists) in Sept 1998 that lasted until February 2004. This was a powerful way of using the steps and connecting with people worldwide looking for an empowering alternative.
I practice a form of Hands-On-Healing (being a channel for Universal Life-Force Energy - see Stevan Thayer link below). As I clear out blocks and release my own excess emotional and mental baggage, I get better at doing this. I am also exploring Creation
Spirituality (Matthew Fox), Love
& Power
(Lynn Andrews), and Anatomy of the
Spirit (Caroline Myss) in order to
understand the correct/best use of my energy and power. (Abuse of power
abounds all around us - so much more obvious in the early 2000's) On March 21, 1998 I was ordained as an Interfaith Minister by Rev. Dan Chesbro into The Order of Melchizedek, a priesthood "committed to teach and/or heal the Human Condition as it emerges into the Age of Aquarius". I KNOW that sounds like a mouthful of New Age mumbo-jumbo. I don't follow any organized religion, however, exploring my spirituality is important to me. I do not know what form God/Goddess/Creator takes - I'd prefer to imagine Universal Life Force Energy and Laws. Still refining and defining all that for myself which is probably a lifetime project. My own personal "Ministry" is following my Destiny as mentioned above. I hope this web page, my 16 Step involvement and Astrology and Numerology charts have been a positive step in that direction.
Hopefully, I don't
come across as too WEIRD (after all, I AM a down-to-earth Sun in Taurus
- in the 12th
House which describes life lessons of Practical Spirituality). I also
HOPE (my name means
Hope) that there is something here that will attract like-minded souls.
If I can do some
of this with HUMOR, all the better. If I didn't have my bizarre sense
of humor to help me
through this time around, I doubt that I'd retain any semblance of
SANITY.
"What our deepest self craves is not mere enjoyment, but some supreme purpose that will enlist all our powers and give unity and direction to our life. We can never know the profoundest joy without a conviction that our life is significant - not a meaningless episode." Henry J Golding "I don't have to be sexual if I don't want to or don't feel like it. My body is mine. I don't have to pay for hugging and cuddling with sex. My sexuality and sensuality are too precious to trade or give away. It is a violation of my spirit to do so." "He could help her to live; he could not help her to decide for what purpose she wished to go on living." Ayn Rand from Atlas Shrugged "The
man who
follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The man
who walks alone is
likely to find himself in places no one has ever been before.
Creativity in living is not
without its attendant difficulties, for peculiarity breeds contempt.
And the unfortunate
thing about being ahead of your time is that when people finally
realize you were right,
they'll say it was obvious all along. You have two choices in life: You
can dissolve into
the mainstream, or you can be distinct. To be distinct, you must be
different. To be
different, you must strive to be what no one else but you can be...
Alan Ashley-Pitt
"Darkness
may reign in a cave for thousands of years, but bring in the light, and
the
darkness vanishes as though it had never been. Similarly, no matter
what your defects,
they are yours no longer when you bring in the light of goodness. So
great is the light of
the soul that incarnations of evil cannot destroy it."
"You are a Light no wind can blow out."
Links
to other places you might like to check out:
As old Honest Abe
said: "People who like this sort of thing will find this the sort of
thing they
like." (I LOVE Abraham Lincoln. Add the works of Mark Twain,
Edgar
Allen Poe, Anne Rice, & Albert Einstein
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at the moment), wooded
places, carving, painting, crafting, exploring new places, flying (I
have also Sky-Dived and Bungie-Jumped - I won't be doing EITHER of
these again in the
near future!), Astrology, Numerology and Dowsing. A FUN little
divination book based on Numerology
is the THOUGHT DIAL
by Sydney Omarr. I use it often to get
Yes or No answers to specific questions or for my subconscious thoughts
at any moment.
You can use it to locate lost objects, too! Just for good measure,
throw Tarot, Runes, Iridology, Palmistry
and Graphology in there, too. I'm not claiming to be an EXPERT in these
things - they
are all interests.
Of
course, all things ARE relative...and my lineage seems to be
predisposed to nuttiness!.
me at 
online divination tools. Matrix Astrology Software's 
to that list.)
