My Passions and Interests:
I read voraciously as
you can see from my Suggested Reading page.
(For Astrologers only:
Although I have the Sun, Moon and Mars in Taurus, this must be what
having Gemini Rising with Part of Fortune, Vesta and
Venus in Gemini are all about - insatiable curiosity about a lot of
My Creative Side:
I love working with computers - building them, upgrading and repairing them, computer shows, tutoring, and web page design.
I've lived in NJ, NY,
PA & CA and traveled to England, Spain, Portugal, France,
Mexico, and Canada - up and
down and back and forth the East & West Coasts. One big
event/choice in my life was my solo
pilgrimage-like drive across country when I moved back to NJ after
living 6 years in CA .
I feel that a large part of my PURPOSE is to DISSEMINATE information and to HELP OTHERS HEAL their own childhood wounds (heavy PLUTO influence in my chart - see HEALING PLUTO PROBLEMS on my suggested reading page) by sharing my path to (Imagine off-key bleating trumpets here!):
A QUOTE from Marlo Thomas:
My personal healing journey started in 1986 when I heard Dr. Susan Forward's Talk Radio Show on WABC-AM in New York. She is the author of Betrayal of Innocence - Incest and Its Devastation and Toxic Parents among many other books. While listening to the callers talk, my own painful childhood memories (which were never forgotten...just pushed aside in my rush to escape from my family and enter the 'real adult world') were triggered.
At the time I was in yet another unhealthy relationship with a pot addict and unavailable male who subsequently pulled a disappearing act. I spent the next 11 years (8 of them alone by choice) going to various 12 Step Self-Help groups, getting therapy, seeking healing and resolution to a lifetime of mild depression, anxiety, angst, pain, feelings of isolation, anger, frustration, distrust, resentment, etc.
July of 1996 another relationship dissolved and left me feeling
used and furious with myself
for making the same mistakes yet AGAIN (feeling like: 3 strikes -
out! and subsequently more distrustful and hollow). I knew I needed a
different forum in which to examine and heal my emotional,
mental and spiritual state.
I started an online 16 Step Email list (with the help of an online friend who was more experienced than I was with email lists) in Sept 1998 that lasted until February 2004. This was a powerful way of using the steps and connecting with people worldwide looking for an empowering alternative.
I practice a form of Hands-On-Healing (being a channel for Universal Life-Force Energy - see Stevan Thayer link below). As I clear out blocks and release my own excess emotional and mental baggage, I get better at doing this.
I am also exploring Creation
Spirituality (Matthew Fox), Love
(Lynn Andrews), and Anatomy of the
Spirit (Caroline Myss) in order to
understand the correct/best use of my energy and power. (Abuse of power
abounds all around us - so much more obvious in the early 2000's)
On March 21, 1998 I was ordained as an Interfaith Minister by Rev. Dan Chesbro into The Order of Melchizedek, a priesthood "committed to teach and/or heal the Human Condition as it emerges into the Age of Aquarius". I KNOW that sounds like a mouthful of New Age mumbo-jumbo. I don't follow any organized religion, however, exploring my spirituality is important to me. I do not know what form God/Goddess/Creator takes - I'd prefer to imagine Universal Life Force Energy and Laws. Still refining and defining all that for myself which is probably a lifetime project.
My own personal "Ministry" is following my Destiny as mentioned above. I hope this web page, my 16 Step involvement and Astrology and Numerology charts have been a positive step in that direction.
Hopefully, I don't come across as too WEIRD (after all, I AM a down-to-earth Sun in Taurus - in the 12th House which describes life lessons of Practical Spirituality). I also HOPE (my name means Hope) that there is something here that will attract like-minded souls. If I can do some of this with HUMOR, all the better. If I didn't have my bizarre sense of humor to help me through this time around, I doubt that I'd retain any semblance of SANITY. Of course, all things ARE relative...and my lineage seems to be predisposed to nuttiness!.
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I'd love to hear from you!
"What our deepest self craves is not mere enjoyment, but some supreme purpose that will enlist all our powers and give unity and direction to our life. We can never know the profoundest joy without a conviction that our life is significant - not a meaningless episode." Henry J Golding
"I don't have to be sexual if I don't want to or don't feel like it. My body is mine. I don't have to pay for hugging and cuddling with sex. My sexuality and sensuality are too precious to trade or give away. It is a violation of my spirit to do so."
"He could help her to live; he could not help her to decide for what purpose she wished to go on living." Ayn Rand from Atlas Shrugged
"The man who follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The man who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever been before. Creativity in living is not without its attendant difficulties, for peculiarity breeds contempt. And the unfortunate thing about being ahead of your time is that when people finally realize you were right, they'll say it was obvious all along. You have two choices in life: You can dissolve into the mainstream, or you can be distinct. To be distinct, you must be different. To be different, you must strive to be what no one else but you can be...
"Darkness may reign in a cave for thousands of years, but bring in the light, and the darkness vanishes as though it had never been. Similarly, no matter what your defects, they are yours no longer when you bring in the light of goodness. So great is the light of the soul that incarnations of evil cannot destroy it."
"You are a Light no wind can blow out."
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As old Honest Abe said: "People who like this sort of thing will find this the sort of thing they like." (I LOVE Abraham Lincoln. Add the works of Mark Twain, Edgar Allen Poe, Anne Rice, & Albert Einstein to that list.)
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Last updated April 15, 2009.